Of Struggles, Failures, and Redemption (Hopefully)

I’ve never really been sure how many people actually “follow” my blog. The number of followers on the homepage, while not fabricated, is the number wordpress came up with by counting my Twitter followers as followers of my blog as well. I appreciate the effort of trying to make me look more popular than I really am, but I know 2800+ people are not reading my blog. I say all of that to say this:

If you’re one of the few who does follow me and read each new post as it’s published—and a heartfelt thanks for that, by the way—you may be wondering how NaNoWriMo turned out for me. Or maybe, judging by the radio silence on here since the second week of October, you’ve already put the pieces together. In short, it did not end well. After that last naïvely optimistic post about getting back on track and hitting the 50k word mark by the end of the month, I hit some more roadblocks: one physical (Covid), one mental. December came and went, and now here we are, three weeks into January and although my physical state has improved, I’m still struggling to get over the mental hurdle and get writing again.

I’ve managed to at least look at my current WIP and give the 5k or so words that are there some tweaking, and I’ve had some good ideas to make the story more interesting, but I haven’t done any writing of real substance since November, and that was brief. But then, scrolling on Twitter while successfully procrastinating (not to brag, but I’m pretty good at it), I saw a tweet that provided a glimmer of hope.

If you’re asking yourself who the heck Josh Stolberg is (and you very well may), here’s his abbreviated bio on Twitter: “Writer of such Oscar bait as Piranha 3D, Jigsaw, Sorority Row, Avatar: The Last Airbender, Spiral & the upcoming Saw X. Director. Photographer.”

The responses to his tweet were more enthusiastic than he expected, so Stolberg later tweeted that he would create a Google doc and share the login info with anyone who wanted to log their daily word count along with him. Just comment on the tweet (click here to go straight to it), and he’ll DM you the login info. I’m hoping this might be the thing to kick me in the butt and get me going again, because I’ll tell you what…once you’re in a rut, getting out is h-a-r-d hard. And like a lot of problems, the only real road block is me.

So tell me, you wonderful writerly warriors (I’ll work on the alliteration), if you started NanoWriMo, how did it go? Did you finish the project, and are you currently editing away like mad? And equally important, if you’ve ever found yourself unable or unwilling to write, what ultimately motivated you to start back up?

As for me, here’s hoping the writer of Piranha 3D will do the trick. Happy writing, folks!

Published by Kenneth Jobe

Kenneth Jobe is a writer, photographer, musician, and Native Californian living in the Midwest with his wife and son. His fiction has been published in Jitter, The Rusty Nail, Ghostlight: The Magazine of Terror, and the horror anthology Robbed of Sleep, Volume 2. His debut novel, The End of Jimmy Ray Day, is being published by Literary Wanderlust, coming late 2021.

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